As an adolescence we usually dream about the direction we would like our life to go within our career paths. What was your dream during this time?

“I dreamt about becoming a movie director.”

Can you talk to me about specific instances that influenced you to diverge from the route that you were on? How did these instances lead you to your current situation?

• “I wanted to be a movie director and I kept on that route until I began at Wright State. My freshman year I learned about the different positions within the production business and decided to pursue being a producer instead of a director. My dream was also to attend film school, but instead I studied film at Wright State. However, during my freshman year I felt I did not have enough support within my major. So, I ended up changing my major to mass communications. Although I am on a non-traditional route, I still am pursuing becoming a producer and break into the film industry.”

What is your definition of the grey area?

• “The first word that comes to mind when I hear grey area is confusion. You are in a space where you are trying to get out of something that seems uncomfortable. But, I believe it is a process or an odd state we all have to go through to get to the end of the tunnel. “

Would you say you are in it currently?

• “Yes, I am in the grey area, especially since being out of college. When in college you think things are going to be handed to you post-graduation, but that is not reality. I feel like if I had all my stuff sorted out through college I would be in a better space as far my grey area but I was not prepared. Thus, here I am the grey area trying to figure out my next steps.”

While in the grey area, what is a common emotion/struggle you are feeling?

• “I felt loneliness. I went through a period where I felt people did not understand what I was going through. But, that kinda changed quickly because I have a twin and my older sister who graduated also, so I do not feel alone. But, I just felt really uncertain and confused. I began asking myself questions, Where should I go next? Who should I talk to?”

Why did you decide to go to college?

• “I thought it was the normal thing to do. I did not want to go. My mom told me to pick a school and start applying. I honestly did not want to go to school, I hated school.”